It doesn't matter how hard u try to fight it. Its hopeless.You'll never win. Not in this world.You'd have to go insane to win. They're more bastards than you can imagine pulling u down,than there are friends trying to help u up. There's always a friend that stab u in ur weakest spot and wrench the knife simply because he/she has to fulfil some sadistic prejudice,that can't be helped.
And they'll do it the moment u let ur guard down...the moment u need caring,support and a nice,warm hug,u get brutally stabbed. Seriously...sometimes thinking of a warm hug,just brings tear to your eyes,cos u just don't know who to trust enough to give you one...and it really,really sucks,because you feel so alone.U try to calm urself with the comforting thought that You have yourself to support you,but u know deep down,that you soo need that hug...u give ur friends another shot,but they begin to excuse themselves and explain their prejudices...then someone tops it off by calling u a deragatory name...the "N" word or the "C" word,or whatever.And that fucking makes your day...
When that happens you need to just bitchslap urself for think so negatively,drink a glass of water to stop dehydration, make a mental note never to drink again,take a long piss and go to sleep.Why? Well, tomorrow is gonna be great that why,fool!!! Its going to be warm,sunny,and oh so beatiful for you...you can hardly wait,now can you?